Fall Фoto Fun!

I've been trying to work on my photography skills as of late, and providing free family session is a great way to get experience!  My friend Tara asked if I'd do some photos of her 3 sweet kiddos this fall so we had a fun afternoon making them smile.  I shot manually-- something my friend Karen  (a real professional!) is inspiring me towards.  I still haven't perfected any real technique but I think we got a few keepers and one even made the Christmas card for this family this year (can you guess which one??)- so I'd say that is a pretty good start!

It wasn't too bad either that my friend payed me in the form of peanut butter and cake mixes! Those are hard to come by over here!

Time in the Far East

Well I was corrected! Apparently we were further into Russia than Siberia- in what is deemed the 'Russian Far-East.' And after flying for 10 hours east- I agree-- it is pretty far!!  Apparently saying 'Siberia' is the same faux-pa as putting a 'the' in front of Ukraine.  I stand corrected.

Our time in the far east city of Khabarovsk went great. I traveled with two of my colleagues and ministry partners, Mina and Galina and we trained a group of about 20-25 people who desire to teach life skills to older orphans in this region.  There are little to no resources for working with orphans here, so they were glad to have our curriculum brought over and some basic training to go with it!  We did a 4 day training with about 6 hours of teaching each day.

I was amazed to learn of the great need in this region.  To say they have a lot of orphans would be an understatement.  This region of Russia makes Ukraine look like they have their act together.  While  Ukraine is transitioning to foster care and more orphanages continue to be merged or shut down, Khabarovsk suffers from over crowded institutions with over 150 kids in each of the  66 orphanages in this region!  I was shocked.  The statistics surrounding the trade schools where the kids go when they graduate are not any better.  Over 30% of the kids are dead within 3 years of graduating.  Sobering statistics.

The people we trained were so grateful that we came, and made us feel like saints for traveling so far.  But to tell you the truth- they were really my heroes. They are a small group of believers who have been challenged to reach the orphans in their community and are seeking out all the resources they can to be effective-- and they are the minority.

One man who attended the training was a former orphan himself. He stood up after one of our teachings and with tears in his eyes began to speak-- 'this information is so needed' he said, 'It's true what you are saying.  I look today for the kids I grew up with and I can't find any of them.  They are either in prison, dead, or alcoholics. The future is empty without God.  I would be lost like them without Him.'  


I am always amazed at the testimonies of former orphans like this man Yuriy, and hearing how God saved them.  Yuriy now has a 19-year-old boy under his wing that he is trying to help rehabilitate- a boy he picked up off the street-- destined for a life like that of his friends. But Yuriy is determined to help give this boy a different future.  This boy recently gave his life to the Lord and is trying to turn it around--but it isn't easy.

most of the people we trained- on the last day!

It was a privilege to have this opportunity to travel east and equip more of the saints to reach these kids...the many many kids.  It was very humbling.  I now see through even different eyes the work that God has done in Ukraine and how far we have come and how now Ukraine is paving the way for Russia.  My friend Galina keeps telling me I can't leave Ukraine until all the kids have homes-- but now I am reminded that the work is far greater than just Ukraine. Don't know if I'm ready to be sent to the far-east permanently-- but if you are praying about a mission field-- then I'd add that to your list!  The need is overwhelming.

Our time in Khabarovsk was pretty much spent at the church teaching. But what little we did see of the city is below...

I felt right at home in Khabarovsk when I saw a sign with my name!
The caption says 'clothing from Great Britain'--(yes please!) :)

My fearless travel companions and friends- Mina and Galina

Cathedral in center of Khabarovsk- a winter wonder-land

Coming full circle

I've known Illya for a couple years through various ministry we have done in Kherson (Illya grew up in the main Kherson orphanage). However I didn't get to know him better until this past summer at camp, when he was in my English group. I always make kids sing silly songs in English and it seems to make us connect!  He went along with it anyway-- good sport that he is.  We had a lot of good laughs in the process.

Illya is just the sweetest most polite kid! He was one of my 'best' students and I quickly learned it was because he had spent the Christmas holidays in the US, with an American family. I also soon learned that this family was amidst the paperwork process and would soon be traveling to adopt him! I was so excited when I found this out!  A 16-year-old boy-- on the verge of aging out, would be given a family-- just in time.

I knew that Illya would do well in America.  I also knew that a boy who is biracial would be accepted better in the US- then he ever would amidst the racism that is so prevalent in Ukraine.  I asked Illya all about his soon to be family and made a point to remember their names so I could track them down and connect with them.

After camp I searched all over the internet and could not find this couple who Illya said was going to adopt him. It seemed I must have had the name wrong or something!

Well about 2 weeks after returning from camp I get an email from....you guessed it-- Illya's adoptive mom!  Apparently she has been a blog follower of mine for awhile and when she saw Illya's picture posted along with the story I had written about camp she figured I must know her son and decided to write me and connect!  I just love when God allows connections like this to happen-- just too cool.  The woman I was looking for had found me!

So all this back story to say....Illya's family finally got their adoption appointment to travel over and get him this fall.  His parents stayed with me on their way to the region so I got to hear more of their story and how adoption was the last thing on their mind....until they met Illya!  I love when God moves like that!

This past week Illya and his mom stayed with me again as they were finishing up at the embassy and getting ready to head home today. The other night as we were all hanging out in the living room I looked at Illya and I looked at his mom and I couldn't help but smile. I love when life comes full circle like this. A boy I meet and get to work with at summer camp winds up being an adopted child that I get to see placed in a family-- a family that I then am able to open up my home to.

It really doesn't get much sweeter than that! 

All grown up...almost

I was in Kherson last week preparing documents for a small group of kids who will be traveling to the US over Christmas. One of the places I always try to visit while in Kherson is the main internat (orphanage) in the center of the city.  I've known some of these kids for nearly 5 years now.  Really I don't get their often enough because I'm always amazed at how much the kids have grown and changed!  I am also reminded that they are still there.

One sibling set has weighed on my heart all these years. Edic, Sasha and Nika.  We've taken 2 of these 3 sweet kids to the US, so I've gotten to know them decently through that time. Paperwork was never done for them, as there mother was in prison all these years--making them never available for adoption.  Edic will age out of the orphanage this year as he is 18.  It amazed me as he still recalled memories we shared together on bus rides in the US 4 years ago--when he seemed like such a kid!  Those trips were so meaningful for the kids...I'm reminded of that when I hear their stories.

If you look closely, you'll see that Nika (on the right) is the same little girl that is with me on the right hand column of this blog. I've never had the heart to change that picture, as her little face has always been so endearing to me.  It was taken on the last day of a camp we did-- when she was sad to say goodbye--nearly 5 years ago!   When I saw her this time I was stuck by how grown up she looked-- that little girl look had left--she is now a young woman.  And yet when she saw me she came running up with a big smile on her face-- something in her little girl eyes seemed to remain-- distant-- but it was there.

Orphan Sunday

Yesterday we honored Orphan Sunday across the nation of Ukraine...well across the world for that matter-- but I was in Ukraine-- so that is where I took part in an event!  The Alliance for Ukraine without Orphans launched a campaign to challenge churches across Ukraine to take part- whether it be corporate prayer or an entire service dedicated to speaking about the concerns of orphans and our role as Christians in solving the problem.  In Ukraine the event was deemed 'Day of Prayer for Orphans' since the word 'Sunday' in Russian literally means 'resurrection.' We figured a day called 'Orphan Resurrection' may not work as well, and decided to use the word 'prayer' instead :)

I had the privilege of getting to speak at my church- International Christian Assembly here in Kiev.  I go to an amazing international congregation here with people representing all corners of the world.  The awesome part of our congregation is that we have so many people with a heart for orphans and involved in orphan care, adoption and other forms of out reach to orphans in Ukraine.  In order to show our church a picture of God's heart for the orphans I decided to talk on camera to those in our church who are out on the front-lines in orphan ministry and what resulted was this little film, which I will share with you here....

grab a tissue and be prepared to ask the question....what will you do?

Our kiddos 2 months later...

About 2 weeks ago I had the privilege of going to visit all the kids we had brought to the US on our hosting trip this past July and August.  We brought 13 kids from the Khmelnestsky region to my home church for 3 weeks and after my quick goodbyes with them at the airport in Kiev, I had yet to reconnect with all these sweet faces and see how they are doing.  So recently I made the venture to see these dear kids.


It's about 4 hours by train and then an hour driving to get to their little village.  When I walked into the room I was mauled with loads of hugs and quickly became even more popular as I handed out letters from all their host families and bars of chocolate.  They all retreated to their own little corners as they read the letters their families had written (and we had translated at my office into Russian).  It was so cute to watch them sharing with one another the news that they were reading!

They were so excited to get these letters and hear what their host families were up to and of course play the 'remember when' game with me.  I was amazed at the little details the kids remembered from their time in the US. From foods they ate, to various adventures they went on with their host families, all the kids were able to recount moments and the things they loved.  


3 of these kids are in process right now of being adopted, so I'm super excited about that. Most likely the families will travel over in the first part of 2012.  And for the rest of them that desire to be in a family I am praying!!   (If anyone is willing to advocate for 2 amazing boys- the two boys pictured above on the right are brothers and are pretty darn sweet!- email me for more details.)


After my time with the kids at the orphanage I went to Tanya's  house for dinner with her family (Tanya was the caregiver on the trip).  What a humbling experience that was.  The village where the orphanage is located is very tiny.  About 400 homes I was told.  

 Tanya's family lives very simple.... toilet outside, no bath or shower, no running water.  And yet she is one of the happiest most gracious people I have met-- as is her mama. They made me a lovely dinner and packed me down with loads of food to take home! Fresh fruit, canned veggies, walnuts, and a sack of potatoes that I could hardly carry home, and I'm not exaggerating!  Their generosity out of the little they had amazed me. I felt bad that they gave me so much-- but they wouldn't have it any other way.  

Tanya was so so so grateful for her time in the USA and all she learned about God while she was there.  She continues to read the Bible since returning to the village, but struggles not having any Christian friends or community.  I can tell it is hard for her to grow, but she was asking some great questions that showed she has a heart to learn.  So, if you think of it, pray for sweet Tanya! Pray she can some how get connected with local believers and that she will continue to seek out a relationship with Jesus. I love her heart so much.

7 years ago...

October 4th, 2004 I boarded an airplane that was bound for Kiev, Ukraine.  I had never been there before and I had no idea what I was going to be doing when I arrived, but I was ready for an adventure--- I just didn't know at the time how long that adventure would last!

I remember the tears that fell as I tried to be brave as I said 'goodbye' to my family. 9 months sounded like such a LONG time for someone who had picked the closest University in order to go home on the weekends!  If you had told the girl sitting on the airplane that day that this flight was going to change the course of her life-- and that 7 years later she'd still be in Ukraine-- I think there is a good chance that girl would have bolted the other direction.  But I'm glad she didn't know.  God knew she didn't need to, because he knew he would work on her heart through time.

I remember praying a scary prayer before I left for Ukraine. I remember praying and telling God that if I was going to go on this adventure then I had to be open to what He wanted it to be about. I told God that I didn't want just some 'experience' so that I'd be able to check a box on some list of life long goals---('live overseas- check!')  So instead I prayed, show me what you want for me in Ukraine, and let me be open to more than just an experience....

I think that prayer changed everything.

So here I am. 7 years later.  God burdened my heart with the stories of countless orphans and he put a spirit of adoption in my heart, and as a result my life looks a lot different then I ever would have planned.

I've been in quite the reflective mood for the past week as I've thought back to memories over the course of the past several years.  I've been thinking about all my favorite moments and all the things I've learned-- the funny and the serious  alike.

This country has shaped who I am.  I realize now that I've grown up here...I've become an adult here.  I was thinking the other day about how I couldn't tell you the price of a gallon of milk or a pound of bananas in America- but I get by fine with day to day life in Ukraine and negotiating with the babushkas selling their fresh produce on the streets of Kiev.  Isn't it amazing what time does?

There are times when I am tempted to think, what would have happened if I had never left?  What would my life look like in the US? Would I be married and have a family? Would I be pursuing acting? Would I be working with kids?  Really pointless questions I realize...since they can't be answered.

Lately the desire to be a mother has been stronger than usual (maybe it's the whole turning 30 thing!) I see babies, I see kids in the orphanage, and I think- Lord- I want that! I want to be someone's mama- to have children--to mother--to nurture.

Yet a thought struck me the other day as I was praying and once again surrendering this desire to the Lord.  I started thinking about all the kids I've 'had.'  Not kids I've given birth to....but the kids that have come into my life, the kids I've seen adopted, the kids at the school I've mentored, my cousins in Kiev, kids at camp. So many faces. And I remembered a verse in Isaiah...

"Sing, o barren woman, you who never bore a child; burst into song, shout for joy, you who were never in labor, because more are the children of the desolate woman than of her who has a husband" says the Lord."  
Isaiah 54:1

And it's not to say that I'm a 'desolate' woman (because I don't see myself as such)...but at times I think loneliness can tempt you to feel that way.  I started thinking of that phrase....more are the children of the desolate woman, and I thought, yes-- that is so true!!  If I had been married with kids the last 7 years, I'd have never 'given birth' to any of the kids I have now.  And really I've birthed a lot!!  :)  This week I counted that I've been involved in over 54 adoption processes for some 75+ kids.  Wow.  Do I want to be a mother? Yes!  But I recognize that God has given me so many children in this season of waiting-- and I wouldn't trade that for anything.

So being in the reflective mode that I mentioned, below you will find some of my 'highlights' of the past 7 years. In reality there are too many to be mentioned here, but as I sat and made a list, these are the first 10 that came to mind as I reflected on the goodness and faithfulness of God throughout my time living in Ukraine.

'Top 10' life moments in Ukraine (in no particular order)....

1.)  Being the 'older sister' to my 6 cousins and getting to watch them grow up.
 Having never had younger siblings it has been a privilege to have these kids in my life-- they have blessed me in numerous ways.  I especially have loved having 'little sisters.'  When I first came my sweet Gabrielle was only 7 and now she is a freshman in high school!  And Victoria and Honnah who were in middle school when I arrived have since left home to college and work!  It has been a JOY to walk with these girls and to do my best to speak truth into their lives at this vulnerable age.  They are the best sisters I could have ever asked for.

2.) Seeing God answer prayers for the orphan in the seemingly 'impossible' circumstances.
One of these 'miracles moments' was seeing Rimma and Lizzie Roge finally get to go home after many years of their parents battling through a mess of documents.  The Roges are my heros for their perseverance on behalf of the orphan.   Another 'impossible' circumstance was the Peck's adoption this year.  We saw God move in amazing ways as he moved the hand of the US govenrment to give Julia a family.  It reminded me that God's heart is with the fatherless and he seeks those who are willing to fight for justice on their behalf.

3.) Seeing Friends embrace God's heart for adoption.
 I've had the chance to walk with 2 friends from 'home' through the adoption process. One was a family from my home church who came and adopted Oksana, a girl very dear to my heart.  Now a piece of my Ukrainian world resides at my home church when I visit. 


The second instance was when a girl I went to college with came with her husband and adopted 2 kiddos from Ukraine-- that experience bonded us for life and we went from being college acquaintances to dear friends!

4.) Having my family get to see 'my world' and see why I love Ukraine.

The first year I was here my parents and brother made the long trip over and since then my parents have been back two additional times.  Having them see my life here was so important to me and as a result they now have an appreciation for Ukraine and support me in being here--which means the world to me. (Love you family!)

5.)  Having Kristi as my 2nd mama, auntie, mentor and friend. 

Kristi Weber (the wife of my dad's cousin) has truly poured so much wisdom and council into my life as she has walked along side me in Ukraine.  She daily points me to Jesus and cheers me up on the 'bad' days.  We have prayed and fasted together, cried together, traveled together, laughed together and have challenged one another on our faith journeys. We are very different--but she is my favorite person to spend time with.   I know she has made me a better person and has shaped me in many ways.  I love doing life with this gal!

6.)  Seeing an increase in national adoptions and getting to promote adoption among Ukrainian Christians.

One such highlight was planning a conference in 2010 for Adoptive families in Ukraine.  Over 200 people attended and it was simply inspiring to see how God is raising up the body of Christ in Ukraine.  

7.)  Seeing the very first orphan I ever met adopted into a loving Christian home 

Ira was the first child I met in Ukraine when she was only 11 year's old. I prayed she would find a family and God answered that prayer just 2 years later.  Ira became Erin and is now 18.  Her parents have become dear friends as well and 'adopted' me as a daughter too.   

8.) Starting a hospitality ministry to adoptive families

I truly love getting to open up my home to families adopting from Ukraine.  Since I opened this 'hospitality house' I have hosted just over 30 families and have so enjoyed getting to hear the various adoption tales and see kids in their forever families.

9.) Being a part of ICA church, a place I love to worship and live life with my church family.

I've been a part of International Christian Assembly since I arrived in Ukraine and it has become a place I love to call 'home'. I have a wonderful community there of internationals- all living in Ukraine for various reasons and following Jesus. 

10.) Directing plays for students at Kiev Christian Academy

When I left the US I had surrendered my life in the theatre to the Lord, thinking there would be no opportunity for using it in Ukraine.  But soon after arriving, the Lord gave me huge gift when I was connected with Kiev Christian Academy.  I was asked to help with their drama program and ended up becoming the part time drama teacher! I've since directed 7 shows at KCA. This has been my creative outlet and a chance to use my theatre education. I also just LOVE these kids.

I know I could come up with many more moments and memories-- but I will stop with 10 for now!  It has been an amazing 7 years of living life in Ukraine and seeing what God has in store around each bend.  People always ask me 'how much longer' and honestly that is a hard question for me to answer. My easy answer is, "well, I never thought I'd be here this long!"  And that's the truth!  Like I said, I never would have imagined this life-- but I see God in it, and I wouldn't trade that for anything.


Thanks for following along on the journey!!  

Celebrating an Adoption Anniversary!

I had my first invitation to 'blog' for someone else this week! My friends Jason and Holly Bollinger adopted 2 precious Ukrainian girls last year, and this week marks their year anniversary of going home with the girls.  Because I played a role in their Ukrainian adoption adventure, they asked if I would contribute to a series of posts celebrating their girls' 1 year anniversary home.  It was a privilege to be asked to share their story from my perspective.

The Bollingers continue to inspire me as they share their adoption story and as spur others on in walking out a relationship with Jesus and reminding us that we always have more love to give.

Happy One Year Anniversary Olivia and Natalia! You are two very blessed little girls!

Click here to visit the Bollinger's blog and to see my 'guest' post! :)

Gold in Kiev

Lest you be deceived, these products can not be found in Kiev.  But they currently reside in my kitchen.  Thanks to a lovely care package from the US from a friend and another friend's commissary perks (oh to have that!), my pantry and freezer are feeling the love.  I am going to be fooling all my house guests into thinking there is a Starbucks around the corner!

I feel a bit spoiled.

I love it.

Celebrating 30!

So I turned the big gulp 3-0 just 2 weeks ago!  I decided that I needed to CELEBRATE leaving my 20's behind and entering into this new decade.  So celebrate is just what I did!!  You don't turn 30 every day (thank goodness) so I decided a themed birthday party was in order! My awesome friends here helped throw me one classy 'Red & Black & White' bday bash, complete with a chocolate buffet! Because what 30-year-old girl doesn't love to celebrate with chocolate!? :)

If you had told me at 23 when I arrived in Ukraine that I'd be celebrating my 30th birthday here, I might have had a hard time accepting that (especially if you told me I'd still be single!)-- but I look at the beauty that God has added to my life in my years here and I feel oh so blessed.  It's not what I would have imagined....it's better.  This life is a journey isn't it?  Each year learning more about myself, more about the Lord and more about how I need to trust him with every detail-- and celebrate what he is doing!!

Here is to the celebration....

Proud to be 30...and excited to serve God with the next 30 years!!

Goodbye to a dear friend....

One thing I've gotten pretty good at over the years is saying 'goodbye.'  Even though I perhaps have gotten good at saying the words, I can't say that goodbyes are ever easy! But it seems to be a big part of living internationally...the ever changing community.

This week we said goodbye to our dear friend Yulia who has served faithfully on my team for the past 5 years!  2 weeks ago Yulia married a great Christian guy from Lebanon and is now beginning her new life with him there.....wow!!

We had quite the wedding celebration on September 17th which was a real blend of cultures.  A Ukrainian girl marrying a Lebanese guy, an Australian pastor, and an American event coordinator!  It made for a real international event and a lovely celebration.



Galina, Yulia and I have all worked together on the Gift of Adoption project (a project of Orphan's Promise) for the past 5 years.  Yulia has been a valuable part of our team and has quite the soft spot in her heart for the kids here.  She has taken nearly 30 kids to the US on hosting trips and as a result has developed meaningful relationships with countless children and has advocated for many to find families.  I have always been amazed at how she would invest in the lives of these kids, with regular phone calls and visits, and occasionally taking a child home for the weekend to get a break from the orphanage.  Yulia has been a fighter for the fatherless.

When I think of my years spent ministering with Yulia so many memories come to mind.  Numerous orphanage visits, our summers spent traipsing around Ukraine to various summer camps, organizing fancy conferences, talking on radio programs, drinking hundreds of cups of tea in our office (that could be an understatement) and simply sharing our lives together.  It is a gift to work along side dear friends who share a common passion and vision. Work no longer seems like work, instead we have been sisters in Christ, fighting in the same battle and coming before the Lord on behalf of his children!















You will be missed my dear sister!  But we know the Lord has exciting things before you as you enter this new season of life! I know you will go on to love whatever children God puts in front of you!  Thank you for the service you gave to us and for your friendship....

Yulia & Khalil on their wedding day.