Tuesday, October 14, 2008

What makes a man rich?

For the past week I have been being "mama" to my 5 cousins here in Kiev. The real mama and papa were in the US so I got to be the fill in for a week. This is not a first--I think I'm becoming a pro actually. It can be a challenge at times being a single mom to 5 but it is always a lot of fun too--because they are GREAT kids and well...I just love them a lot!
The other morning, little John shared something at breakfast that I think was quite profound for a 5 year-old. Andre, who just turned 9 was talking about different people he knows that are "rich" and all the cool things they have, and then he stopped and said, "Karen, are we rich?"
I went in to a little explanation about how we are indeed rich because we have so many things, and a roof over our heads and food three times a day--and well so much of the world does not (really deep I know). And then he asked, "well what makes a man rich?" And before I could come up with an even more profound answer, little John pipes in and answers, "you're rich if you trust in God!"

Wow! Talk about a good reality check I was given from a 5-year-old! Sometimes it takes the little one's to put it all back in perspective. Thanks John. :)

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Trust

Trust. This is my word of the moment. The word I keep having to remind myself of. Trusting the Lord and where He is leading...even when I don't fully understand.
A year ago I was on a silent retreat with people from church and the Lord impressed upon my heart Psalm 37 over that weekend and it brought me much encouragement for where I was at. Well it seems to be that exactly a year later that Psalm is bringing truth to me again and God is taking me to a new place of letting go and trusting Him- inspite of all my doubts and fears.
Trust in the LORD and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; TRUST in him and he will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun. Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him...(Psalm 37:3-7)

About a week and a half ago I had to make a decision that involved a lot of trust. Trust in the Lord and where He is leading, Trust in the Holy Spirit's guidance, and trusting a lack of peace that I have had inside for quite some time. I ended my 6 month relationship with my dear Max. It's weird to even be writing about this in a public forum sort of way, but at the same time it is where I'm at right now, and I guess it is good to be able to let people in- even as I process all my random thoughts. Letting go of someone you deeply care about and have spent so much time with is a very hard process...even when you sense it is where the Lord is leading. I have to say that in the moments after our difficult conversation I wanted to take my words back and hold on to the familiar-- afraid of the unknown future and of being alone again. But then there was that word again...TRUST. It was a word that kept coming up even in the days leading up to my conversation with Max. Friends encouraging me that I have to keep my eyes on Jesus and trust that He has the bigger picture in his hands. In those moments of doubt that is all I can cling to-- trusting Jesus..trusting that He will continue to guide my feet...and Max's too...and that my doubting and worrying will do no good. Instead I just have to let go...and TRUST Him. And really, it's not only a daily decision, but a moment by moment decision.
I don't know where you are at in this season of your life and if you are found in the midst of a mountain peak or a darker valley...but I pray you too can hear the whisper of his voice, however quiet it may be...saying "Trust me."
May we encourage one another when our vision becomes blurred.

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Lena & Dennis' Wedding~ September 27th

My beautiful roommate Lena got married yesterday to a wonderful man named Dennis. I got to stand as the witness (like a maid of honor in the US) and watch her wonderful day unfold. It was a blessing to help put this wedding together and see how great everything turned out...even if just about all the details (including the location) were decided in the last week. Lena has been a wonderful roommate and friend for the last two years-- I'm sad to not have her with me anymore- but so excited for her future ahead. I've seen her grow and mature so much in the last two years, and her friendship has become so dear to me. Here are some fun photos from our wedding fun this weekend.

Saturday, September 27, 2008



Wedding Bells...


Before you freak out too much-- no, it is not me getting married! But my roommate is tomorrow! In true Ukrainian fashion she arrives in on the train tomorrow morning, just in time to run home and get ready for her big day. In the mean time I've taken up a new job as a floral arranger. I have to say I have always had a thing for arranging roses, so when Lena said I could do the flowers for the wedding I was oh so excited. Here is a glimpse at my handy work tonight(I had to share it with someone). The photo displayed is of her bouquet and mine (I will be her witness/bridesmaid). I was thrilled today when my friend Galina took me to a "whole sale" flower shop where they had room after room of discount flowers...I went just a little crazy! Awesome prices-- I bought all the flowers for the wedding for under $100! Anyway, it is 1am and I still have to finish cleaning our apartment before she gets home in the morning. Be sure to check back after the weekend for the wedding photos!

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Amerikanskaya Barbie

I remember when I first came to Ukraine 4 years ago, my Dad's cousin Steve (the director of our mission) had this great idea that I could be a part of our concert team that travels around the country performing shows for children and adults. Ha, I thought! As soon as I was here I realized that me acting in Russian would not be an option.
Well maybe Steve was prophetic in his idea...as this past weekend I traveld with our concert team to Kherson and performed in 2 children's concerts! One of our actresses recently resigned so they needed a quick fill in. I had a week to memorize my part (don't worry it wasn't very big!) and then we did one performance of each play this past weekend during a tent evangelization in Kherson. So what was my role? I was Barbie! I guess I was the first blonde Barbie they have had-- go figure! So anyway, the most memorable moment was when a little girl came up to me after the concert and asked, "are you a real Barbie?" How do you answer that question!?? I said yes...to humor her...and possibly myself. I guess I was living a little girl's childhood dream. I got to sign a few "Barbie" autographs in Russian too!
In addition to performing children's concerts we also got to stop by the Kherson Orphanage, where my team has worked a lot and the kids there are some of the ones we brought to the US last year. Below is a photo of Zina and Rimma, two girls that are very close to my heart that some friends are planning on adopting, prayerfully this will happen soon.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Baby oh Baby!


My time in the US this summer may have well been called a baby blitz! As that was what I did-- I spent my time meeting many new babies of some of my dearest friends. Above is a little collage to highlight some of these visits. All of them are pretty darn cute! (Top L Kesley, the baby of my friend Britliese)(Top C, Hayden my best friend Amber's new little guy who was born in June) (All three pictures on the far R are my most darling nephew Caleb) 2nd row left is my friend Katie's little girl Evangeline, middle space is my friend Christine and her new baby Avery-- who I actually got to meet in the hospital, she decided to be born right before I left- so I was glad about that! Bottom Left is my dear friend Annamarie's baby girl, Alaina- who I met first in December- but got some more sweet time with in August. And last in the bottom center is my friend Mandy's baby Evangeline (Evie) who was born in January and is a true miracle baby! Mandy and I became dear friends in Kiev but she is now in the US with her family in SC and I got to pay them a visit on my way back to Kiev. To read more about her Evie's miracous story visit www.seventhsmith.blogspot.com So that's the baby blitz!!! Needless to say my arms were VERY full!!
Below are some other fun pictures from my time at home! Enjoy!! :)
my 3 best friends and our babies...oh wait I had to steal one so that I could have a baby too!

my dear college roommate Danielle came up from California!
with my brother and Caleb
my sister-in-law Heather
Annamarie, Amber, Tara and I
grandpa and Caleb!

my cousin Honnah and I at the horse tracks

with Mama and Caleb in the pool
Beautiful Seattle

My wonderful family!



I don't want to say goodbye!

Friday, August 29, 2008

Some "Lighter" Moments of Summer Camp in Ukraine

I have to take a few moments to a post a new entry that I should be naming "things you need to choose to laugh at or else you may get frustrated"- but that didn't have the same ring to it as the phrase "lighter moments." Following is a photographic glimpse of some of the more humorous (and sometimes not so pretty) moments experienced at our camps this summer. Enjoy!


This was where Mary Lynn, Amanda and I slept for a week...this picture makes it look more luxurious then it was.


Why squat alone when you can do it with a friend near by? Shall we say moral support? Welcome to our toilets at our Kherson Camp.


That degree in theatre has really paid off. Now I get to entertain groups of kids in a giant blue suit.



Pick your currency in the form of a cookie. US dollars, Euros and Ukrainian grivnas! With the falling rate of the dollar I think I'll go with the Euro please!

My friends assured me that a little protein with your morning cream of wheat does not do any harm! Ahh well...they eat them in Africa right?


You never know when you will stumble across a cow in the country...this one was getting a little too friendly.


Sala...a Ukrainian delicasy. Sala = pure lard. This is the one thing this girl chooses to pass on-- can't quite stomach this tasty Ukrainian treat--even if they call me crazy!

Now that was fun wasn't it?! Any volunteers for next summer? :)

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Natasha


This is Natasha. I met Natasha at the 2nd camp we had in Nikolaev at the end of July. We were only there for 6 full days, and so I didn't anticipate developing too deep of relationships with the kids and in some ways I think I had set my expectations rather low for what we could accomplish in such a short amount of time. Well it turned out I was in for a surprise! With my friend Zhenya and two American friends, Mary Lynn and Amanda, I had the privilege of teaching life skills lessons each day to youth about 14-16 years old. We mostly had girls in our groups and to say that they were thrilled to come to the lessons each day would be an understatement. Especially Natasha.
Each day Natasha would arrive to our "gazebo" where the lessons took place and she would sit there wide eyed, half staring at her 3 new American friends- so eager to soak up all of the information. We gave out workbooks on the first day which contained the weeks lessons and worksheets, and on the second day of class Natasha came back and said, "this is all so interesting, I read the whole book already!" With her angelic and sweet nature I could tell that we would be friends soon. During our lesson on friendship each of the kids had to interview someone else and work on their listening and question asking skills. Natasha decided she would be my partner and her eyes lit up when I agreed. I enjoyed my conversation with Natasha, and asked her questions about her dreams, her hobbies, her family and the things she'd like to learn (like English!) Natasha is almost 14 years old and wants to be a teacher someday, she has a dysfunctional family situation, and spends most of the year in the orphanage, except for the times when her grandparents come and get her. I think what amazes me most about Natasha, and many other youth like her, is the dreams she has for herself, dreams to live a different life than that of her parents- and believing she an. After the day of friendship we had a time of crafts with the kids in which they could make greeting cards for a special friend. After the craft was over Natasha handed me the card she had made, "It's for you, she said." Inside she had written, "After today's conversation, you have become my best friend. You are a miracle, miracle, miracle. With love, Natasha"

Now don't worry, I know I am far from a miracle (God's got a lot of work to do on me yet)- and I know Natasha didn't have a full understanding of what she was saying-- but these words that she wrote gave me a deeper understanding of how much these kids need relationship, how much they need true friendship, people who care...just a listening ear! Part of me was sad that after a 10 minute conversation, Natasha could say I was her best friend--because I know I am far from that. Sometimes it breaks my heart to realize how much these kids have to learn--even what it means to be a real friend. But for this 14 year-old little girl, a listening ear, and a loving hug brought friendship- a friendship that surprised and blessed me as well...and I hope our friendship will continue on.
When we left the camp in Nikolaev I wasn't prepared for the streaming tears of a dozen 14-16 year-old girls that flowed as we said our goodbyes. I've gotten used to saying goodbye to kids over the years with all the camps and visits we do-- but this time seemed different for some reason. In those six short days the Lord used our team to build some amazing relationships and lay the foundation of trust and friendship with young people who have such deep emotional scars that I cannot even begin to grasp. I was blessed just to be a small part of that. More than anything, through those 6 short days I was reminded of the importance of listening and loving...not always speaking, but just being present. Natasha helped me to do that. Thank you my sweet sweet friend.













Lord Jesus, continue to send your workers into the fields of the Fatherless....may more and more Ukrainian believers be challenged to enter the walls of the orphanages and begin relationships with these youth who so desperately need a healthy adult in their life, a listening ear, and love. Amen